So I guess I haven't been very active here. I've just had trouble working up the gumption to draw anything. After spending ten days in the whack shack, my A-game has sort of diminished. I want to say how much I appreciate toyboxfox
for your continual support. It seems like no matter how large of a time gap their is between my posts, I can always count on hearing feedback from you guys, even though I'm not very good about leaving comments on your guys's amazing artwork (I do view it though, I swear!).
I'm still working my dead end job at FedEx Express at Sky Harbor here in Phoenix. It is very hard pulling myself out of bed at 1am every morning and making it through the day. I have considered moving up, but since I'm trying to enroll at Grand Canyon University in the Spring, I'm thinking it might be a good idea to keep the graveyard shift I have now so that my daylight hours remain free.
I'm working with an admissions rep at the school, and he says it shouldn't be hard to get me enrolled and caught up. I'm going to do Christian Studies with an emphasis in Youth Ministry. I'm hoping to get a solid job with the Church, and maybe do missionary work while mainly focusing on kids and teens. My parents however are not on board with this, and are not willing to help me pay for it in any way. My mother says I should major in business, or if I really want to do Christian studies, that I should minor in it and major in something that will actually support me.
I'm sorry, but I'm offended. This may sound cliche, but I'm convinced that this is what the Lord has called me to do. And if I'm going to go into this with a "backup plan" in mind, it's essentially saying I don't trust Him to provide. I've honestly never been more certain of anything. This ministry is the only thing I've ever been passionate about. Not art, certainly not business. Careers in those areas are great and all, but they're also worldly. They won't matter when the end comes. I'm going to take my life and do something eternal with it. Something that will matter.
It's funny yesterday, I was feeling really crappy about my life, as I saw two of my old friends had gotten married and are expecting a child soon, and it made me wonder why I'm still single and alone and miserable. I was crying on the way to school to see my admissions rep. When I got their, we talked about school and finances, and then he asked if I was involved in a church (GCU is a Christian university). I said no, but I used to be really involved in one, and out of the blue he said he got the sense that I've been feeling very much alone. And said it was probably true because my eyes started to water as I was holding back tears. I then got a mini sermon on being a "treasure in the arms of Christ". It was everything I needed to hear where I never expected to hear it. So I had a God moment, and he referred me to a church called Redemption Alhambra that he said was the greatest church he'd been to, and I plan on going this Sunday... so there was that.
In other news I had a pumpkin spice latte the other day. It was a glorious reunion of soul and beverage. Angels sang. They seriously did.fin